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Perspective

It’s interesting that I have now, once again, found the urge to write again. I have spent many months with the idea of writing, or for that matter, letting others know what I really think. For those of you who know me, you know that I have been in a state of flux for the past several months.

I have been slightly wayward, especially after being let go from something that I studied long and hard to do. On that same note, I would not have been able to write anything like this post at any time in the past four months. The only way I can write this now is because of one thing, perspective.

I have now had four jobs in he last four months, and now am doing something completely outside my field of devotion and study. I do still work in a church, but it is in a part time and limited capacity. I am once again doing something that I love, which is music, but my day to day job is something vastly different. I spent seven years studying religion, and have now spent the last four months outside of this field. It’s been a wild ride.

I can say now, something I couldn’t say at the beginning of this journey, God has a plan. I’m reminded of the passage of scripture in Malachi 3:2 which says, “For he will be like a refiner’s fire or a launderer’s soap” God sometimes has to put us into situations so that we move ourselves out of the way. God has to put a little pressure on us at times so that we can see what he is pushing us towards.

Now throughout this experience my heart has picked up a lot of scars, there has been hurt by people being used at cross purposes from God’s. I have seen both the best and the worst of people and this experience will make me more useful to God. I know that God will take my experience and as I move towards what’s next, He’s prepared me to face adversity and difficulty.

God’s plan is becoming more clear to me on a day to day basis. I know where I want to eventually be, but I’m not sure how I will get there quite yet. Another thing that this newly found perspective has given me is this: be a light where you are. I’m daily surrounded by a group of people who do not know God. It is funny to me that these men attempt to moderate how they act or speak as soon as they know a little bit about my past. I know that I have the opportunity to be an influence for good on these guys, it may merely be that no one has taken the time to care about them, or that God put me there for a reason.

I have had many friends encourage me over the last few months, and still others who have no idea the struggle I’ve come through. But I sincerely hope that if you are in the midst of some struggle, although I know it’s hard to hear in the midst of turmoil, that maybe my words may be marginally comforting.

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Incognito

I read the story this morning of the walk to Emmaus, but two previously anonymous disciples of Jesus. And something really jumped out at me. The story is of two of Jesus close disciples walking to Emmaus  a town that was approximately 7 miles away (according to my translation). They meet a man who seems to be clueless about what has been happening just up the road in Jerusalem.

While talking to this man, one of the disciples says “But we had hoped that he was the one to redeem Israel.” (Luke 24:21.) Now I think this phrase alone probably made Jesus pretty mad. I believe he had to be thinking, Did they get it at all? Did I not make it really, explicitly clear what I was doing? How could they spend so much time with and yet understand so little of what I was doing? Can’t they see the bigger picture? This is so much bigger than Israel!

But Jesus couldn’t just stop and give them both a good face palm. Jesus was incognito remember, the disciples did not get it, so what does Jesus do? He explains it all to them. From Genesis to his resurrection. And still they don’t see that it’s him. Eventually Jesus breaks bread and that opens their eyes to the fact that it is Jesus that has been with them. Their reaction, “weren’t our hearts burning within us?”

Maybe Jesus often comes to us incognito also. Maybe we miss Jesus because he doesn’t come with a huge flashing neon sign that says, “Son of God, Right Here” with a big arrow. But don’t we often have that sensation of our hearts burning within us, with our hearts being set ablaze with Jesus zeal. The disciples saw Jesus, but they did not see how big the plan actually was.

When they say they had hope for Jesus redeeming Israel I think Jesus was screaming inside his mind. Jesus was saying, “WHY MUST YOU PUT ME IN SUCH A SMALL BOX!” My plan is not just for Israel, but for the whole world! We often miss Jesus because he’s incognito, but we feel the tug and burn of our hearts. When Jesus finally reveals himself we have that face palm experience that Jesus was dying to give the two disciples.

This week lets pay a little more attention to our burning hearts, so that we end up exactly where Jesus wants us to go.

 

 

Control

This Sunday morning as I sat in the sanctuary here at Mulberry and listened to our Senior Pastor speak my mind latched on to something he said. Now this was particularly the point of his sermon, but this is what God had me hear. My mind began to turn over and over the idea of control.

We (myself included here) all like to be in control of our situation. We like to feel like we are on top of the situations in our lives. I don’t know many, if any, people who like to feel out of control of their situations or their lives. But is this what we are called to? Are we told to live neat, well managed lives?

I think Jesus finds the illusion we have of being in some sort of control as laughable. We only have the illusion of being in control of ourselves and the world around us. I have been listening to a worship song that I was introduced to a while back called “We are the Free” By Matt Redman and Jonas Myrin.

The chorus for this song is, “We are the free, the freedom generation/ singing of mercy/ You are the One who set us all in motion.” I love this because it speaks of us being free from the world around us, but it does not forget that God is the one who put us all in motion. It talks about how we need to relinquish our control so that we can follow as God intends.

We all have an illusion of control, but we need to get past that misguided view of the world around us. We need to truly see our surrender as freedom to follow in the footsteps of Christ. We need to stop thinking of ourselves in control and fully abandon ourselves to the pursuit of God.

 

Getting Your Gait

So this is my second week in a row inserting a video into my post, but this song has played several times in my office in the last week and I just had to post it.

Those of you who know me well, know that I am a huge fan of the Dave Matthews Band. I have been a fan since high school where I think I watched “Listener Supported” at least 1000 times from the couch in my family’s couch. Then I remember sitting in my room for hours learning to play anything I could get tabs for from Dave, and even had some roommates in college that loved (possibly hated) my rendition of “Long Black Veil.”

This song is off of Dave Matthews Band 2004 release “Stand Up” and quickly made it in to my top 5 of all time favorite songs. The lyrics are so simple yet profound. “To change the world/ you start with one step/ however small/ first step is hardest of all.” This is the first verse from the song and I keep coming back to these words.

The more times I listen to this song the more sense it truly makes to me. We spend much of our lives dreaming up what we could do, what would be possible, if only this or only that. What we truly need to do is to just start walking. I am the king of this, I sit in my office dreaming, scheming or planning, but the follow through on these plans is lacking.

I also think about this song in light of all the bad things I see in the world around me. Maybe if we stop sitting and discussing these issues and actually put ourselves out there things will begin to change. “Once you get your gait/ You will walk in tall” we have to start getting our gait. We have to start working instead of bemoaning the world.

God is calling us to action through this unlikely source. We have to stop worrying if we’ll die trying, and begin to think about the fact that if we succeed things will be so much better.

 

 

261 (the random name generated by the machine)

Today I feel like I have absolutely nothing to add to the conversation of the world. I am living in a distracted state of mind and I feel like there is not much useful getting done. How often do you feel this way? I know there are many days in which I sit down in my office and I just don’t know which pile to begin working on.

There are many piles on my desk currently, with the current worship series we’re doing piling up and the next series on Christian Theology also piling up. I just feel like things just move too quickly at times. Now I personally have a natural response to this kind of situation, and it’s probably not like it should be.

When I get overwhelmed my natural response is to find something else to waste time on, but my job does not give me that luxury. There are things that I have to get done, and also things that I have to move on to when those things get finished. But one of the things that helps me to push through and deal with these kinds of days is the longer term perspective.

God has given us the long view to help us to forget the troubles or lack of focus for the day. So if you have a difficult day of focus, just remember God has given us a long term perspective of working for His kingdom. Now try to push through.